Stepping Out of Limbo

In September, I posted a blog about how I didn’t care much about entering my senior year of high school.  Basically, it was just a bunch of complaining and moaning. 

You can look at it here;

http://sweetwaffles.wordpress.com/2008/09/03/cranium-in-limbo/

…(not that it’s worth reading).

Since I just graduated, I’ll dedicate this blog to discussing my future plans.   I’ve matured a lot.  Looking back on that blog in September, I almost feel ashamed of myself.  I was scared of the future, which is understandable; but I was not completely willing to step up and do something about it, which is not as forgivable.  I should have tried to make the most of my situation, and I just whined about wanting to be in ninth grade again. 

Now that college is the next step in my life, I’m starting to get serious about my future.  My girlfriend and I did apply to Virginia Tech for the early decision application.  I was deferred and she was accepted.  Then for the regular decision application, I was put on the waiting list.  In the middle of all this, I was almost wishing for a definite no instead of a possible yes.  I really wanted to know what I was going to do in the future.  

Last week I received my rejection letter.  It’s going to be tough seeing Mindy go, but I’ll attend community college for a year and transfer to Tech without any problem.  I’m very happy for her, and I wish her the best of luck.  I’ll get to see her at every home football game! 

As for my career path…Ahhh, I guess I’ve got some more life to live first.  I’m going to fill this summer with books and knowledge and Mindy.

Procramstination

I can’t cram these thoughts into words. I just keep thinking and thinking. There are so many things that I want to get done, but I can’t convince myself that they need to be done. Do my flippin’ homework, get rid of all the useless junk in my room that just takes up space, learn how to drive, and be a better person.

I haven’t done any of my summer assignments besides read The Grapes of Wrath. And that doesn’t really count for anything because I can’t prove I did it.

So far this summer, I have done……..not too much productive. I mean, I got a job, but I hate it. I read a bunch of books, and that was great, but again it doesn’t really count for anything. I guess I can tell you what my favorite book that I read this summer was A Long Way Down by Nick Hornby. Actually, that may be my favorite book, period. I lost myself reading it, and that’s usually how I judge if a book is good or not. But this book is so much more that just a story. I’m not going to tell you about it, though. You should go read it yourself. Oh, and it introduced me to Nick Drake. Wow, I don’t know if you’ve heard any Nick Drake, but this guy’s music is exactly what I feel like on a lonely day when I should be doing my homework, but can’t convince myself to do it.

Anyway,

I should have a) done my homework, b) gone driving much more than I did, c) learned French like I told myself I was going to do, then I could have d) read as many books as I wanted to.

Mindy was even gone for a whole month. I don’t want to complain, though. She is my personal monster and I love her. And I did get to see her quite a bit. Come back, sweet Summer! I should have made you last.

And I didn’t even get a Spring break. I was walking around Disney World with Sartre’s The Wall in front of my face the whole time.